Genie Thoughtalini
November
2022
November was always a happy month for me because in the second to last week I have my adoption day, my dad’s birthday, my parent’s anniversary and then usually Thanksgiving. Despite the problematic nature of that holiday, it is a source of good memories for me as it brought together family friends and taught me the importance of giving and community. Everyone stomping in out of the snow carrying plates of delicious food I could only eat on that day because that food was theirs and they had come to share a part of themselves with us. That sharing and exchange is what made it valuable, the new energy in the house for that short time sparked feelings of joy and loving kindness, acceptance, gratitude.
I think about that week and why the thought of it warms me. It’s not really the presents or the food, but the way I felt held or seen by others and a part of something beyond myself. It is also a week where celebrations are steeped with familial and friendly love, where we take time to celebrate the other and within that there is then space to celebrate ourselves and be celebrated. The endless energy transfer of beings sharing openly.
I think it’s hard to find those moments these days, I still celebrate that week but I am no longer together with my family or our friends during it. The loving feeling I have rests in the past, and it still nourishes me, but I yearn to continue creating that kind of “home” for my heart and mind.
I think that twitch has become a big space for building those moments, I know we all share memories together that made us feel happy, purposeful— experiences that encouraged us to reflect on how to care for others or how to care for ourselves and how to understand our place in a group—a home. It being digital perhaps makes it hard for those things to be tangible, but I want more than ever to make that a possibility.
If I had to say, that’s what I would wish for the people I love.
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